31/12/2011

Hey guys! I just came to say have a wonderful new year! Also, I hope y'all had a brilliant Christmas, and got what you all wanted! I sure did!
Anyway, this is going to be a quick post because my sister is coming to pick me up soon and we are going to PAR-TAY!
Hopefully, since I'm 17 and just 11 months from being the legal age to drink, I'm actually allowed stronger drinks, and actually allowed to get drunk, haha! - This is honestly coming from a girl who doesn't like alcohol!

This is the time of year where we can all forget about our worries, forget about our past, party hard and think of the future!

Also, I have something quite funny to tell you...
About a week before Christmas, me, Amy, Sam and Nikki went to a Burlesque show... Well since we were underage, I decided not to tell my mam, since there are girls stripping in it... Anywho, on the day, I left my ticket at home, and my mam found it and told me to come pick it up... When I got home she started asking me if I was a lesbian and that... I was so confused. So now, to this day, my family think I am a lesbian, no matter how many times I deny it. I have no problem with it, I'll admit I am bisexual, so yeah :'D

Now, I'm blabbering, what the hell?!
I always do that -_-
I apologize!
and now I must take my leave as my sister has arrived!

Toodles!!!

23/12/2011

Yet another Christmas Tag

Hey dudessss and dudettessss!
I found this other Christmas tag on Daphyin's blog! Yet another blog you should check out, it's another awesome blog!
So, yeah, I'm bored and it's almost Christmas... So why not! :D
P.s. feel free to put this on your blog, same goes with any other questionnaires and shizzle that I put up :'D Remember, I got them of other blogs too! Sharing is caring!

1. What are you doing for the holidays this year?
Well, as per usual, wake up at some silly time in the morning, get all excited, wake my parents up, sort all of my presents from smallest to largest, open them (smallest to largest), being careful not to rip the wrapping paper, have my parents nagging on telling me to hurry up... You get the jist!
Get ready into my new clothes (if I got any, which I always do) get picked up by my sister and brother-in-law and get took over to my other sisters and have this huge family thing going on, have our dinner and then let my two gorgeous nieces show me what they've got. (last year I got shot in the eye with a Nerf gun)

2. What's your favourite holiday drink?
I drink anything on Christmas, so I'm unsure in all honesty. Even though I'm not a drinker, I do have a glass of wine with my Christmas dinner, but hey! It's acceptable, right?!

3. Candy cane or gingerbread man?
Oh dear, I love them both so much, but I may have to go with Mr. Gingybread dude, Candy canes get sticky easy and I don't like sticky!

4. What's you favourite Christmas song?
Stop the Cavalry! I have loved it ever since my brother started the army, maybe because I'm proud of him?
So, yeah, I've loved that song since.... I was 5? I don't know, I can't be bothered to work it out.

5. Have you ever made a snowman?
I have indeed! He had a penis, I called him Frank. I also made him a wife, she had boobies and I named her Gertrude. Oh the joys of being mature!

6. What's your favourite winter fragrance?
As I said in the last Christmas tag, apple and cinnamon!

7. Favourite Christmas film?
Again, like in my last Christmas tag, Elf, A Christmas Carol (Disney and Muppets)

8. Are you on the naughty list or the nice list?
Well, probably on the naughty list but I think me and Santa could come to terms.
Dear Santa, please do not poo down my chimney! I promise I will make up for being a naughty girl by leaving out cookies and milk... Also a carrot, for each of your reindeer! 


9. Show us an Embarrassing Christmas card photo (WE KNOW YOU HAVE ONE OK)
Hurhurhur, jokes on you my dear! I in fact do not have one :P
All the Christmas cards I received have penguins on, because people know me so well!
I HAVE A PENGUIN FETISH!... Ew, no I don't touch them!

10. Have you ever had a White Christmas?
Yes! Last year! The snow lasted from October to around March I think.
I tried to go see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 1 for my birthday and I was stuck for half an hour trying to push a car up a bank.
Having a White Christmas is lovely though!

11. Where do you usually spend Christmas?
At home and then a few hours at my sisters :)

12. Play or sing your favourite Christmas song?
M'kay, here we go! Here's the first part!
Hey, Mr. Churchill comes over here to say we're doing splendidly, but it's very cold out here in the snow marching to win from the enemy. Oh, I say it's tough, I have had enough can you stop the cavalry!


13. Do you open your presents on Christmas Eve?
Psh, no! Where's the fun in that!

14. Can you name all of Santa's deer?
How many are there? Hm I'll try!
Donna, Blitzen, Rudolph, Dancer, Prancer, Dasher, Vixen, Comet, Donner, Cupid..... Any more? Yes, no? Unsure!

15. What holiday tradition are you looking forward to this year?
Getting up ridiculously early, also going over to my sisters and seeing my family!

16. Is your Christmas tree real or fake?
Fake! Cheap, reusable and won't die! Simples.


17. Hands down, what's your all-time favourite holiday food and holiday sweet treat?
Pigs in blankets! Definitely!
and for the sweet treat Pink & White Nougat. Yumyum!

18. Be honest: do you like giving gifts or receiving gifts?
Both!
I love shoving a gift in someone's face and seeing their eyes light up and a huge smile spread across their face, it's so heart warming!
Also when you get presents, it's nice to know that people have took the time to think about you! Awh, such a lovely time of year!

19. Show us your tackiest Christmas attire (e.g. ugly Christmas jumper)
Honestly, I don't have one!

20. What would be your dream place to visit for the holiday season?
No where! I'd prefer to stay here!

21. Does your family have a special holiday recipe you like to help make?
Nope, whenever I go in the kitchen my sister kicks me out and tells me to go play with my presents haha

22. Are you a pro-present wrapper or do you fail miserably?
I FAAAAAAIIIIL! Seriously, I suck at wrapping presents!

23. Most memorable holiday moment?
I actually have 2! Walking downstairs to already see my parents there with huge smiles on their faces, and throwing loads of presents in my face!
Also when I go over to my sisters and my nieces look so happy and they run up to us all excited and show us what they got. Seeing everyone so happy makes it such a special, heart-warming day!

24. What made you realise the truth about Santa?
Seeing all the presents hidden in my mother's wardrobe haha.
But I still have my suspicions! I'm always the last person to bed, I don't even sleep, and somehow when I get up, boom loads of presents came out of no where, what's up with that!?

25. Do you make New Year Resolutions? Do you stick to them?
I used to! I don't stick to them so I gave up making them. Although I do have two stupid ex related ones that kind of conflict!
1. Get Harry back!
2. Get over Harry!
See what I mean?

26. What makes the holidays special to you?
Waking up to loads of gifts, seeing my family all happy, no arguments! Still being dark out side when I wake up (don't ask why) Seeing excitement on my two special girls' faces when they open presents, the food... etc!

So there you have it, I'm actually a kind-hearted person, I know :P
Like I said before, feel free to steal this!

LOVE YOU ALL and WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR
also AHHHHHH I WANT A PET RUDOLPH :D
Bye now!


21/12/2011

Picture time!

This is on the night I got my new lip piercing. My lip went all fat.

Please don't ask!

SamSam is a cutie

On our way to Birmingham, we'd been on the train for an hour, it was 7 in the morning when I took this

Make up! Plus the Drop Dead top! 











How I wore my hair for the burlesque!
Thanks Nikki!

People keep asking if he is my boyfriend.

I adore this picture and I adore this boy!



We are all squished...

Hey, Sam, what you doing? You look like Justin Bieber!



Dancing, whilst waiting for the metro

These two are weird 

She makes me jealous. WHY YOU SO PERFECT!?




She's my best friend and I love her!

Probably a mugshot...

This is my sexy face...
I drew the demon horse thing, I don't even know why I put it in here :') Oh well, you get to see my drawing skills.
Some of these pictures look weird and squishy, I blame my iPod for that
The boy is Sam (obviously)
The red head is Nikki
The pin-up Betty Page/Dita Von Teese look alike is Amy!
The ginge thing is me... As you know!
These people complete me!

So, what has Zoe been up to?

Three posts in one day, I know, terrible, but I need to make up for lack of activity on here, plus we all need to catch up!
I've done quite a few things during the time I have been away from Blogger, and I have got a few pictures. If this post is too long, I may have to put the pictures in another post and spam you some more, hope you don't mind!
By the way, these dates aren't even in order, just how I remember them, just for your information, haha!



Well, at college, I have this mega crush on someone called Andy. Everyone now knows I like him, even him. The thing is, he thinks he is too old (he's 19)
Honestly, I don't think it's too bad, but I suppose if he doesn't want a relationship, we won't have one, I'll get over it.


On 29th November, I turned 17! I got loads of nice gifts, and many happy birthdays, also a huge helium balloon that is bigger then me, yay!



On the 25th November, I went on a college trip to Birmingham, to see a clothes show. It was amazing! There was a cat walk and also there were absolutely loads of mini stall things where you could buy clothing, make up, shoes, all sorts! I thought I died and went to heaven, until I checked my bank account that is.
I bought a Drop Dead top, which was £35 (yeah, I know), a dress which was £15, some make up from a pin-up store (I might do a pin-up make up tutorial for you all if you really want?) and some other bits and bobs which I don't seem to remember. But thanks to that day I only had £22 out of £200 left over.



Sometime ago (don't remember the date) I got my lip pierced. I love it!
My sister also got her eyebrow pierced, it actually looks so cool!



On the 5th (I think?) November, with the college, we went to this thing full of fabrics, threads, fashion books, etc.. Honestly, it was really boring, plus I can't remember much about it, other then the fact it was full of snobby old women who kept barging past us and giving us teenagers the 'snobby look'. They needed to calm down a bit and stop with the snobbishness, it's really not attractive in any way!


On the 17th December, (yes, this Saturday) me, Amy, Nikki and Sam went to a burlesque show and honestly, that was the best thing I've ever seen! It wasn't all about women getting naked, it was great to watch, there were some carnival stunts, e.g. a woman eating razor blades and setting nipple tassels on fire and stuff. I want to go again, it was great!
Also, me and Sam slept at Nikki's. If you remember, Sam is gay, so nothing naughty happened ;) Naughty people. Although I did sleep on the floor with him and I rolled over onto him in my sleep and crushed him, hahaha!



Also, before I got this started up again, I sat and read the Inheritance Cycle, and I must say they are the best books I have ever read!
Also, I got Sims3 Generations and Sims3 Late Night, so my social life has, yet again, gone down the toilet! My Sim is a vampire and she goes to many parties and goes to all the bars. She has a better social life then me. Oh, I'm so cool!

Right, I may as well put the pictures in another post because I just realised how many pictures I have! Oh the joys of being you! Just kidding! Hopefully you will enjoy all this since I haven't been on in a while. Omg this is quite exciting! Yay!


Anywho, I'll start uploading these pictures and then go to bed and when I wake up at some silly time in the afternoon, I may think about decorating my blog!

Christmas Tag!

Well, I might as well :P It's 4 days until Christmas, I need to get more into the mood, I'm bored aaaaand I've missed writing blogs!

So anyway, I stole this post from Yasmina, from Butterflies In My Sky . Her blog is awesome, go check it out!

1. What is your favourite holiday movie?
Well, actually, I have three! Disney's A Christmas Carol, A Muppet's Christmas Carol (or would that be classed as one? I'm not sure) and Elf  "Buddy the elf, what's your favourite colour" explains it all!


2. What's your favourite Christmas colour?
I have two! Red and green, obvious reasons... They're Christmassy!


3. Do you like to stay in PJ's or get dressed for Christmas?
Both! I love being all snuggled up in my jarmies, nighty and slippers whilst I'm opening all of my presents! But then we go over to my sister's to celebrate and have our Christmas dinner, so I always wear my new clothes I get!


4. If you could only buy one person a present this year, who would it be?
That I'm not hugely sure on. I would love to buy something for someone in my family, but you have to be equal with family so I'd be buying more then one present. This question is difficult. Probably my dog...


5. Do you open your presents on Christmas Eve or Christmas day?
Christmas day, Duh! Why would you want to spoil Christmas by opening all of your presents on Christmas Eve! Seriously! If you open them on the Eve, you will have nothing to look forward to, and you will be breaking the tradition! Shame on whoever opens their presents on Christmas Eve! (rant over)


6. Have you ever built a Ginger Bread House?
Sadly, no, but gosh it would be fun! I would love to make some sometime now that it has been mentioned it! Yumyum!


7. What do you like to do on your Christmas break?
Relax, get in the Christmas spirit, watch loads of Christmas films, eat my weight in chocolate, go Christmas shopping, be lazy, watch the snow falling... If there is any!


8. Any Christmas wishes?
Get the f*ck over Harry, find someone decent, be happier, don't let the little things get to me, live my life to the fullest, overall have a better year... Oh and GET ABSOLUTELY LEGLESS! (drunk)


9. Favourite Christmas smell?
The smell of the Christmas tree, also the apple and cinnamon candles, Christmas dinner.


10. Favourite Christmas dinner or treat?
Chocolate (obviously), bacon sandwiches (tradition for my family to have bacon sarnies for breakfast on Christmas morning) and pigs in blankets (if you don't know, mini sausages wrapped up in bacon, shame on you for not knowing)


So, there we go, I had fun doing this! Also feel free to steal from my blog, just remember to put a link back ;)
Love you all!

OMG

Omg you have no idea how sorry I am!
I've been gone for so long, I have missed this! Well, I'm back for good! Hurray!
Let me explain, I thought I deleted my Google account accidently and I couldn't access my account, then not long ago, my friend, Yasmina, noticed my blog was still there, so I realised I must of changed my password and forgot yadda yadda...

Anyway, fun times!
Gunna start my blog off again with a kind of count down questionnaire thing.
So starting from 10...

10 facts about my room
(1) It's pink and black (2) It is currently very very messy! (3) I have a built in wardrobe (4) It's the coldest room in the house (5) I have a double bed (6) The carpet is a charcoal colour (7) It had 10 cans of energy drink and 7 bottles of Lucozade cherry lying around in there (8) It's above the kitchen so I can hear my mother singing while she cooks (9) I have a poster of Ryan Reynolds on my wardrobe (10) I have way too many teddies in there.

9 facts about my family
(1) It's strange (2) They annoy me but they are my world and would be lost without them (3) I have 4 nieces and a nephew (4) my nephew is 14, I'm 17 (5) My siblings are only my half siblings, Leanne, Sarah and Chris have a different dad to me, Jane has a different mam. (6) My oldest sister is now 40 (7) My brother is in the army, he is quite high ranking too (8) my brother-in-law, Craig, is my best friend, he is amazing and I'm proud to class him as part of my family (9) Me and my mam have a film night every night and I love it!

8 facts about my body
(1) I'm 5 ft 2 (2) I weigh around 7 stone (3) I'm self conscious because I'm underweight and I can't put it on (4) I don't tan at all (5) my eyes are grey/icy blue (6) I now have my lip pierced! (8) My hair has been blonde, pink, cosmic blue, red, purple, orange, ginger and different shades of brown. It's currently my natural hair colour which is a mousey brown/ginger/blonde.

7 facts about my childhood
(1) I used to fancy Peter Pan even though he was a cartoon character (2) I used to adore Pokémon and Digimon (3) I was a cry baby (4) I got bullied (5) I barely had any friends (6) I used to steal my sisters make up and give her teddies make-overs (7) I slept with the light on until I was 13.

6 facts about my hometown
(1) It's full of nasty chavs (2) It has like 5 pubs right next to each other (3) There's been way too many deaths and suicides here (4) It is not a safe place, AT ALL (5) Probably the worst town to live in (6) There's graffiti everywhere.

5 facts about my best friend(s)
(1) I have 3, called Amy, Sam and Nikki (2) Amy is a pin-up girl and she is beautiful! (3) Sam is gay and he is so cute! (4) Nikki is a down to earth girl and you can talk to her about ANYTHING (5) All 3 of them are the reason why I love college so much!

4 facts about my parents
(1) They are such a cute couple (2) My dad likes to torment me, but hey, that's his way of showing me his love (3) My mam loves spending time with me ;) (4) They both annoy the sh!t out of me but I wouldn't change them for the world.

3 facts about my personality
(1) I'm quite crude (2) I'm shy, but once you get to know me I'm loud (3) I have a good sense of humor and I love to hear jokes, just as long as they aren't offensive/racist/sexist/ageist, you get the jist.

2 facts about my favourite things(1) They suck blood (2) They are known as creatures of the night

1 fact about the person I like(1) He's happy with someone else </3

So, there's some pointless facts to get my blog going again! I hope you enjoy and missed me as much as I missed you all! (trust me it was loads)
I will post something again, because I need to catch up, I will also be reading through all of your blogs!

Merry Christmas/Happy Hanukkah/Seasons greatings/happy holidays y'all!
<3  

11/11/2011

Hello, just a small post :')
Remembrance Day is here, a day to remember all of the soldiers who risked and sacrificed their lives for our freedom today.
Lest we remember.

Anywho, today was fun :D With the college, we went to a university in my city and me and my two friends (Sam and Amy) got lost and the rest of the class had to come and find us haha, we're terrible!
but at the uni, we had a few different tasks to do. First task we done was dressing up mannequins with our accessories but we had to do them in a weird way (if that makes sense) so basically if we had a scarf, we could put it on a mannequin as a belt.
Our second task was to free-hand draw the mannequin we dressed up, not much to say about that one!
Finally, our third task was on the computers. We used a software (don't remember what it' called) a bit like Photoshop and a drawing tablet, we had to draw a picture related to fashion. Omg it was so fun!
One let down, though, was when we went in the lift, I ended up having a panic attack :O

Anyyywho, I don't know what else to talk about now soooooo yeaahh...
Toooodles!

10/11/2011

SORRY SORRY SORRY

Hey guys! I'm so terribly sorry I haven't updated in a while! I haven't been on Blogger much lately, sorry!
I could lie my way out of this but I'm not like that, so, honestly, I've been caught up writing FanFiction stories. I've only done two chapters so far, but I'm hoping I can keep going, also hopefully I will come on here more and start getting into the blogging habit again.

So, what happened to me during the week?
There's this boy who sometimes comes into my lesson called Andy (might have said something about him before, I don't remember) and he's really cute and I think I have a thing for him now... On Sunday we were talking on facebook and he said he wanted a St. Bernard and so, I drew one for him and gave it to him on Monday and he loved it! Yay, made me happy! Every time he sees me he always gets this cheesy grin and comes over to talk to me, I also noticed that when he's in my lesson he kept looking at me and smiling... Does he like me back? I kinda hope so...

I don't think there's really much to say apart from me and Harry had an argument cos he never had any texts and I never knew and I thought he was ignoring me so I pretty much turned hostile and went on a mega Zoe rampage. He was being quite nasty so I burst out crying and told him I was having a hard time that night cos of some man...  I don't really wanna talk about that, but I guess it's not too serious, so don't worry about it.
But, yeah, I told Harry (and only him) and he apologized for being horrible and shouting at me and we were good after that... He also admitted he missed me.
Now, I'm torn between boys... But honestly, I'm gunna go for Andy (if he likes me too).

Wanna read my FanFiction? I've only wrote one mind and there's 2 chapters so far. I'm working on the 3rd one now so I might have a few more up by the time you read it.
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6788715/1/Life_as_an_Immortal
There's a link to it! I'm no forcing you to read it either, so don't feel pressured to haha!

Toodles

03/11/2011

Hey guys!
Don't you just hate it when you're out with people and you get this awkward body shiver thing and your friends just stare at you. It's pretty awkward.
It's like random, awkward shiver that you can't control and then you're like "LOL a ghost walked through me"
but thinking about a ghost walking through you just scares the pants off me... Really.
I've heard other things too;
You get the shivers when people are sharing an intimate moment with each other (which is understandable because it's like a shudder)  or
Someone is walking over your grave. Last time I checked I wasn't dead, and that saying also scares me.

Another thing is when you're trying to sneeze and you feel like no one is watching so you pull the must weirdest orgasm faces while trying to get the sneeze out and then it goes away and you realise people are watching you.
AWKIES!

Sorry I haven't been updating much lately, I'm back at college after my week off and well, nothing fun has really happened.
Apart from the fact this lad called Shannon (yeah, a boy called Shannon, it's Irish, and I love the Irish so I find it cute) he's really sweet to me, and I was thinking, yeah maybe he'll be the one for me because he wants to settle down and stuff.
Harry got all weird with it and then pointed something out, he went with two of my good friends and cheated on them both, which is actually a good point. That put me off him a bit.
Also, another thing that has put me off him, he is getting way to obsessed with me and it's actually scaring me a bit. He is trying to stop me from hanging round with my friend Sam because he hugs me a lot and stuff, so Shannon is getting jealous about it.
Also he is talking about meeting my parents already and having children, he's not even my boyfriend for crying out loud!
I'm in a bit of trouble because it's my birthday month and he says that he wants to take me to the cinema for my birthday and then he said "please say yes" so I feel crap if I say no. I guess it's a chance to go to the cinema for free though, but if he tries anything rude while we're in there, he's getting a slap and I'm walking out and hiding in the toilets :'D

I still have many feelings for Harry too... Though I do feel as though I'm starting to get over him a little...
I think I have a few feelings for Sam too..
Confusing much.

25/10/2011

You can't take me anywhere.

Today was quite alright! Woke up at half 8, I wasn't very happy with that, but oh well, I have all week to catch up on sleep.
Then we sat around and ate, then got ready to set off to Wet'n'Wild!
I must say, it is pretty amazing there! There's scary slides and then there's some nice slides that don't fling you about.

Me and my niece went on one called the Black Hole, where the two of you sit in a double rubber ring and you go through a long dark slide, but there's patterns in it which makes it look like you're in space!
My favourite slide was called the Abyss, again, you're in a double ring and so I went on with my niece, you go down that fast, you don't touch the bottom of the slide! I got a huge mega wedgie though!
Right after the Abyss, me and my niece went on the Twister, where you go in a slide each, but you go down at the same time to race each other, the Twister was horrible! There was no rubber ring and it went so fast I ended up hitting myself off the slide and fractured my ribs. I also managed to fracture my wrist.

Now for a rant about tampons.
I know people are different, but I just need to know, HOW CAN YOU WEAR THEM? They are so uncomfortable. Yeah, this is coming from a girl who likes sex and penis. You would think tampons would be nothing because they're smaller, but no. 


Anywho, after Wet'n'wild we went for a McDonald's and when we finished we started walking back to the car, I fell over a Ballard. Talk about clumsy, I need to be wrapped up in bubble wrap!
My clumsyness is terrible! I'm not allowed in this shop called Collectibles because it's full of expensive glass ornaments and crystal ornaments and loads of stuff that is not Zoe proof. Oh dear.

Now, I'm absolutely tired and it's only 10 past 3 so I might as well go and have a nice little snooze to see if that stops all of the pain in my ribs and back and head and wrist.
(I have a nice long bruise across my back because I got stuck to a rubber ring and then done some sort of crazy flip out of it.)

Toodles!

24/10/2011

Awh, today was quite good!
It's my dad's birthday so me, him, my mam, sister, brother-in-law and two nieces went to a pub for a meal.
I had a chicken and bacon burger with BBQ sauce and I swear to god it was just beautiful!
I really wish I was eating it again, I'm quite hungry...

Tomorrow I'm going to a water park called Wet 'n' Wild and I'm pretty darn excited for that! Yay!
Just as I thought my week was going to be bad, it gets better and better!

Hmm, I don't think I really have anything else to say :')

So yeah,
Toodles!

23/10/2011

Scratch off challenge!


I was reading Hazel's blog and I noticed she done this scratch off challenge and I thought it look kind of fun!
Also, why not? It's Sunday, there's nothing better to do.

If you want to do this too, then all you have to do is scratch off the things you have done or are relevant to you... Simple!

Appearance!
I have/had piercings besides the ears.
I want piercings besides the ears.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different colour.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
I have a tattoo.
I want a tattoo.
I can be self confident about my appearance.
I have/had braces.
I have more then two piercings.

Embarrassment!
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've laughed so hard I cried.
I've glued my hand to something.
I've laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've touched something sharp/hot to see if it would hurt.

Health!
I've gotten stitches.
I've broken/dislocated a bone. (dislocated my knee a few times)
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I've had chicken pox.
I've had malaria.
I've had typhoid.
I've had jaundice.

Travel!
I've been on a plane.
I've been to the US.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to at least another country. (If Scotland counts then...)
I've never been out of my country.
I've driven/ridden over 200 kilometres in one day.

Experiences!
I've gotten lost in my city.
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out to a public place in my pyjamas.
I've pushed all of the buttons on an elevator.
I've slapped someone.
I've kissed someone underwater.
I've chugged something.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing.
I've been in a musical.
I've auditioned for something.
I've been on stage.
I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I've sat on a rooftop at night.
I've pranked someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.

Honesty/crime!
I've been threatened to be arrested.
I've broken the law.
I've done something I promised someone I wouldn't. (got me nipples pierced haha)
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I've sneaked out.
I've lied about my whereabouts.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've been in a fist fight.

Death!
I'm afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.  
I've seen someone/something die.
Someone close to me has attempted/commited suicide.
I have attempted suicide.
I've thought about suicide before.
I've written an eulogy for myself.

Materialism!
I own over 10 music CD's.
I own over 10 novels.
I own over 5 electronic gadgets.
I'm obsessed with anime/manga.
I collected comic books.
I own a lot of make up.
I own gaming console(s).
I own a car.
I own a bike.
I thrive on compliments.
I thrive on hate.

Random!
I can sing on low key.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up easily to others.
I watch the news occasionally or always.
I like to kill bugs.
I like to sing in the shower/bath.
I'm a morning person.
I'm a sports cricket fanatic.
I twirl my hair.
I care about grammar.
I love spam.
I've copied more then 30 CDs in a day.
I bake reasonably well.
My favourite colour is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red black, purple or orange.
I would wear pyjamas to school.
I like Martha Stewart.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
I can't sleep if there's a bug/insect in my room.
I'm really ticklish.
I like chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I'm good at remembering names.
I'm good at remembering dates.
My memory sucks.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

People!
... Uses to ask if I was anorexic/bulimic.
... Call me fat.
... Say I'm skinny.
... Have said I'm ugly.
... Have said I'm pretty.
... Have spread rumours about me.
... Forced me to eat.
... Say I eat too much.
... Say I eat too little.
... Say I eat too fast.
... Say I eat too slow.
... Have called me a genius.
... Have given me gifts.

Eating!
I've lost weight.
I've gained weight. (At last!)
I'm at my thinnest.
I'm at my biggest.
I've lost weight and kept it off.
I've lost weight but gained it back.
My weight affects my mood.
I diet.
I'm vegan/vegetarian.
I exercise.
I've fainted from exhaustion

Family!
I've sworn at my parents.
I've planned to run away from home before.
I've run away from home.
I have siblings less then one years old.
I want kids.
I have had kids.
I've lost a child.

Relationships.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I'm a swinger.
I'm in a relationship.
I've gone on a blind date.
I have/had a friend with benefits.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I don't like to depend on others.
I've gotten divorced.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
Someone has/had feelings for me when I didn't have them back.
I told someone I loved them when I didn't. (I was 14 and confused.)
I told someone I didn't love them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality!
I'm a cuddler.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've hugged a stranger.
I've kissed a stranger.

Bad times!
I regularly drink.
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty.
I've been diagnosed with depression at some point.
I have anxiety problems.
I shut others out when I'm upset.
I don't have anyone to talk to when I'm upset.
I have taken/take anti-depressants.
I've slept and entire day before.
I've plotted revenge.

So... Now you know a bit more about my personal life.
Yes, I have been suicidal and I entirely regret that when I look back on it, but, I felt like no one cared at the time...
Yeah, I'm also going to get my nipples pierced this week even though Harry has told me not to.

Toodes.











22/10/2011

Having followers makes me feel like Voldermort, which is why I named them my Deatheaters.
I have more Deatheaters then Voldermort, therefore I am more superior today then him (I made a mistake and just realised but I thought it would be funny to keep it in.)

Anyway, today, I stumped my toe on my drawers, so I immediately  ran over to my laptop and updated my facebook status to 'Stumping your little toe is probably the worst pain ever'
My sister commented saying 'Erm, I beg to differ! Try breaking your arm then tell me if stumping your toe is worse!'... I replied with: 'I've never broke my arm before, therefore the worst pains I have experienced is stumping my toe and menstrual cramps... Excuse all of the posh and proper dialect, I am in a weird mood :')'
I don't know where my parents found me. I think I was found in a bin so my mam picked me out and said "I shall call you... Zoe" and then went to the top of Pride Rock and showed me to all the animal kingdom. From that day on, I was declared heir of the rock. (I just made that sentence my status)

Hahahaha, oh, I made cakes with my niece today, I don't know how it's funny, but we kept fighting over the instructions. I was telling her to just guess everything and she was like "No, you have to read the instructions to get them right" and then I remembered the last time I was making biscuits, I just guessed all of the measurements and they turned out like soggy cakes. They were disgusting and greasy so no one dared to touch them in case it gave them food poisoning. Oh me and my diabolical baking skills.

Ok, that's all I have for now, I'm going to get into bed with Ryan Reynolds, who is naked. (yeah I wish)
Who wouldn't want him naked in their bed?!
No, me and my friend Chris are going to take over the moon and make ray guns to shoot all of the moon zombies. We need to get lives.

In reality, I am making Sims that look like goths and prostitutes...

Toodles!







21/10/2011

I know I've just posted something, but really, it was just an award ceremony thing and wasn't really letting go of what I was thinking.

Ok, so you probably never knew this about me, but one part of my brain is always thinking about stuff to do with sex.
For example, there's a car outside of mine and it's been there for ages. This man just there came out and opened the car door and this girl got out. The first thing that popped into my dirty little mind was "Omg he is keeping her as a sex slave and is locking her into his car so he can just lie to people, say he is going to get something out of his car and then go to her for head... or something like that...

Yeah, now you know that. I don't really post stuff like this on here, but I guess it's what's going on it my mind, so yeah, why not?!

Talking about sex. Now that I have gotten my implant took out and I have came off my period for the first time in a year, I have completely lost all cravings for sex. I don't know whether it's good or bad...
Although I have lost the cravings, I still sometimes have them erotic dreams where some hot bloke comes along and shazzam his clothes are gone and so are mine... I like them dreams, although it probably means that my brain is screaming at me "go get laid"

Another thing I like to do it come up with funny euphemisms, suck my alien and bite my hedgehog are probably my favourite, although if someone said them to me with a serious face, I'd probably look at them for a while with a scared expression and walk away slowly, but quickly enough so they don't have the chance to follow me and repeat it constantly until I cry.....

Now for a sudden change of subject, I find it quite amusing when you attempt to play hide and seek with yourself. I'm probably sad to say this, but it kept me entertained for a whole 15 minutes.
I found myself in the mirror every time though ;)

Anywho, I'm gunna go and make myself something with chicken in....

Toooodles!

Award

I would like to thank Itin over from Miss Acidic for awarding me with the versatile blogger award!



7 facts
1. I walk with my feet out-turned and I have one pupil bigger then the other. I feel like a duck most of the time.
2. I'm a huge gamer and I get terrible gamer rage. e.g. with Angry Birds. If I can't one level, I'll say I hate the game and it's shi*t but then after another go, I will do it and I'll say it's the best game ever and I love it.
3. I don't know why, but when I walk through a crowd of people, or if someone if waking very close behind me, I hold my breath.
4. I read too many scary stories and now on a night I have to duck past my mirror, not look behind me and don't look down the sides of my bed. I also run and jump on my bed which has caused me to sprain my wrists multiple times.
5. I'm terrified of Spongebob and can't watch it anymore, thanks to reading Squidward's Suicide and looking at the picture.
6. I got a new phone recently. I have a T-Mobile Rapport and I'm in love with it!
7. I spend my night thinking about my old relationship with Harry and I think about how I could of probably made things better. I always end up crying myself to sleep because it's been almost a year since we split up and I'm no where near over him yet.

Right there's all my facts, I know they're nothing much, but I really can't think of anything interesting about me... :S
Now, for the part you have been waiting for! The 10 bloggers I think deserve this award!
And the awards go to:

Mayen from Clicks and Cuts
Hazel from Pablo's Angel
Tay from Rawr Series
Hamza from Teenage Mutiny
Rosamond from Rosamond writes

I know it's meant to be 10 but there's one more person I'd like to award this to and she really does deserve it, as do all of the people I have listed here!
Daphyin from Makeup is Art

Now, RULEEEZZZZ, yeah, you have to follow them...

1. Thank and link back to the person who gave you the award.
2. Share 7 things about yourself.
3. Send it along to 10 other bloggers and let them know you have awarded them!

Just three simple little steps,
Now go and be happy :3

Toodes


Don't look if you have a weak stomach!

Heeey dudes! I'm feeling slightly better today! Maybe because I got a new phone and it's awesome and stuff.
But that's not what I want to show you guys.

If you know me well enough, you will know that I like to take a picture of my injuries (if they're are noticeable that it, I couldn't take one of my split head because it's on the back of my head...)
So now, I'm going to put a picture of where I got my implant removed.


My plaster came off and I was greeted by a lovely stench of blood and anaesthetic. Also a lovely sight of blood. Quite a bit of it. I also noticed that I'm actually still bleeding a bit and it has been over 24 hours. I told you guys I was a good bleeder. haha.
I think it's a good job that my picture quality is not that good because it is quite gruesome. 

Anyway, sorry if I made you sick and have put you off getting the implant. Getting it in was probably a bit worse, I had a MASSIVE bruise that took over my arm for like 2 months... but saying that, my arm was cut open getting it removed so it stings quite a lot and I bled more... Well, they're equally as bad.
Also both times I couldn't go in the bath for a few days in case it got infected. I feel all horrible
Out of my own experience, I wouldn't recommend getting the contraceptive implant, but I can't exactly say "Oh don't get it, it's crap, you bleed loads and blahblahblah" because we all have different bodies :)


Anywho, hope you all are good and you're arms are stinging-bloody-anaesthetic-plaster free and you're all nice and bathed and clean, I feel horrible (but it's not really effecting my mood!)

Toodles.

20/10/2011

You tell me to get in the kitchen, I will drop-kick you in your sensitive area.

This may probably be one of the worst days ever...

College
Jan (our lecturer) is basically picking on me and she is just annoying me now. She likes showing me up in front of the class.
Today she talked non-stop for half an hour and I was sitting there bored and in my own world (looking grumpy too, but can you blame me) and then she said "Zoe, why do you look so worried?" and everyone looked at me and then she just kept going on and on at me... It took me all of my will power not to leave the class and shout something very rude to her.
Luckily, we're off now for half-term.

Doctors
I went to the doctors today to get my implant out. If you don't know what an implant it, it is a stick that is put in your arm to stop you getting pregnant. Well, I wanted my implant out because I had it in for about a year and it just never worked for me. Addressing all females, how would you like to be bleeding for a whole year none stop? Yeah, it's not good I can tell you that.
It wasn't too bad in all honesty. The anaesthetic needle hurt quite a bit but when it came to cutting my arm and pulling the implant out, it was nothing, just felt like tugging. After that, I was bleeding loads and then another nurse came in to do the dressing and she got all frustrated because I was bleeding loads, haha. She had trouble getting the steristrips on because of it. She was like "Oh dear, you're bleeding loads!"

Everything annoys me
I'm at the point where everything annoys me and I cry at everything. I think it's mainly because my arm is stinging and I get all grumpy after having needles in me.
When I got home, all the annoying people decided to pop up and talk to me about utter nonsense! They usually don't talk to me so why now?! Seriously!
And now that I need to talk to Harry he won't bloody reply to my texts or anything! I want to drop-kick him in the sensitive area because he said he will text me to keep me company in case I get scared. He texted me this morning atleast.....
Now I have this over-excited ginger 15 year old talking about sex and trying to turn everything into a competition. I also want to drop-kick him n the sensitive area. Especially now that he has said "I have had sex 4 times, my first time when I was 7" Seriously, I didn't even know what sex was when I was 7, He's more then likely lying though. His parents must be proud...

I'm sorry you guys have to put up with this, but you guys understand and you say such lovely comments that make me feel better. I feel like I can tell you a lot more stuff then what I can tell people who I know very well. Maybe because you's won't spread it around like what most "friends" do...

Girls, you can probably relate to me...
Boys, I'm sorry that you have to put up with girls when we're like this... We don't really mean it, honestly!

Right, I'll let you carry on with whatever you were doing :D Thank you for taking the time to listen (well, read)
I love you all! Free hugs and cookies for everyone to make it up to you since I'm in a crappy mood!

Toodles!

18/10/2011

Oh today was just so long and tiring! I want to curl up in a ball and sleep!

It's getting to that time of year where there's bitterly cold winds, your hands, nose and ears go bright bright red due to coldness and also snow is on it's way pretty soon, apparently.
That time of the year where you want to put on your warmest jarmies and snuggle up in your quilt with a roasting fire and lots of good films to watch.

Anyway, back to the long and tiring day.
At college, the times on tuesday are changing from 10 o'clock in the morning to 9 o'clock in the morning (on the bright side, we get thursdays off now!) but these changes start after half-term, however, I thought they already started... So I woke up early.... But when I found out I crawled back into my pit (warm cosy smushy bed) and spooned with my teddy for half an hour (yeah, I go to college and still can't sleep with teddies on my bed, I have a double bed so I need them to fill it up and make me feel less lonely)

Ok fast forward to dinner time... Imagine this scenario, I was sitting there happily nibbling away at my aero chocolate bar, with my friend Sam looking at me. So, still nibbling on my aero, I looked at him and then he randomly said to Amy (my other friend) "Do you think we'd make a good couple" and then put his arm around me... I was then nibbling on my aero with a scared expression. Then it decided to snap and fall to the ground... I cried.

Anyway, I have a bed calling my name for a threesome with the blankie and pillows, YUMMY! Or would if be foursome? You have the matress too... Hmm.
Oh well, Bed time for me!

Hope you all have a good day/night my beauties!
Much love

Toodles!

17/10/2011

My nightmares are back. You may be thinking 'pshh nightmares aren't that bad, it's just in your mind'
Well, that's what scares me the most. It's in my mind. These nightmares haunt me for the rest of the day.
What are my nightmares about you ask? Serial killers, death, violence, all that jazz.
Last night I had a dream I was a patient in a mental hospital (well I was someone else, but I cold see everything they saw). The doctors done horrible stuff to me, they beat me and done loads of other terrible stuff. Then I turned psycho and went round killing the doctors. 

Anywho that's enough of my terrible nightmares...
I need to have a rant.
You see at college, I have 3 lecturers for my lesson and today we had Jan. Jan does different shapes, but she makes it seem more like an art lesson not a fashion and textiles one.
Firstly, she makes us go to the beach and collect stones so we can get inspiration from them. Personally, I can't get inspiration from stones because they are boring as hell.
Secondly, she basically picks on me, Amy and Sam and makes us do stuff that we don't want to do. She just nags and nags at us and complains when we're doing other things, like drawing a dress! Excuse me but last time I checked I was in fashion and textiles, dresses are associated with that!

Rant over.
Toodles.

16/10/2011

Story of the Little Boy


Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: “How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?”
The surgeon said, “I’m sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn’t make it.”
Sally said, “Why do little children get cancer? Doesn’t God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?”
The surgeon asked, “Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he’s transported to the university.”
Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair.
“Would you like a lock of his hair?” the nurse asked.
Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy’s hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, “It was Jimmy’s idea to donate his body to the university for study. He said it might help somebody else. “I said no at first, but Jimmy said, ‘Mom, I won’t be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.” She went on, “My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.”
Sally walked out of Children’s mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy’s belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy’s belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son’s room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.
It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:
“Dear Mom,
I know you’re going to miss me; but don’t think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just ’cause I’m not around to say I LOVE YOU. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won’t be so lonely, that’s okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn’t like the same things us boys do. You’ll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don’t be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn’t look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God’s knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That’s when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good-bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn’t allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him ‘Where was He when I needed him?’ “God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.
Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I’ve written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn’t that cool? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I’m, sure the food will be great.
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don’t hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I’m glad because I couldn’t stand that pain anymore and God couldn’t stand to see me hurt so much, either. That’s when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?
Signed with Love from: God, Jesus & Me.”

I just found this story on a Facebook page called InspireYourLiving and I just had to share it.
When I read it, I just burst out crying, it's so heat breaking, yet heart warming at the same time.
Toodles.