30/10/2011
25/10/2011
You can't take me anywhere.
Today was quite alright! Woke up at half 8, I wasn't very happy with that, but oh well, I have all week to catch up on sleep.
Then we sat around and ate, then got ready to set off to Wet'n'Wild!
I must say, it is pretty amazing there! There's scary slides and then there's some nice slides that don't fling you about.
Me and my niece went on one called the Black Hole, where the two of you sit in a double rubber ring and you go through a long dark slide, but there's patterns in it which makes it look like you're in space!
My favourite slide was called the Abyss, again, you're in a double ring and so I went on with my niece, you go down that fast, you don't touch the bottom of the slide! I got a huge mega wedgie though!
Right after the Abyss, me and my niece went on the Twister, where you go in a slide each, but you go down at the same time to race each other, the Twister was horrible! There was no rubber ring and it went so fast I ended up hitting myself off the slide and fractured my ribs. I also managed to fracture my wrist.
Now for a rant about tampons.
I know people are different, but I just need to know, HOW CAN YOU WEAR THEM? They are so uncomfortable. Yeah, this is coming from a girl who likes sex and penis. You would think tampons would be nothing because they're smaller, but no.
Anywho, after Wet'n'wild we went for a McDonald's and when we finished we started walking back to the car, I fell over a Ballard. Talk about clumsy, I need to be wrapped up in bubble wrap!
My clumsyness is terrible! I'm not allowed in this shop called Collectibles because it's full of expensive glass ornaments and crystal ornaments and loads of stuff that is not Zoe proof. Oh dear.
Now, I'm absolutely tired and it's only 10 past 3 so I might as well go and have a nice little snooze to see if that stops all of the pain in my ribs and back and head and wrist.
(I have a nice long bruise across my back because I got stuck to a rubber ring and then done some sort of crazy flip out of it.)
Toodles!
Then we sat around and ate, then got ready to set off to Wet'n'Wild!
I must say, it is pretty amazing there! There's scary slides and then there's some nice slides that don't fling you about.
Me and my niece went on one called the Black Hole, where the two of you sit in a double rubber ring and you go through a long dark slide, but there's patterns in it which makes it look like you're in space!
My favourite slide was called the Abyss, again, you're in a double ring and so I went on with my niece, you go down that fast, you don't touch the bottom of the slide! I got a huge mega wedgie though!
Right after the Abyss, me and my niece went on the Twister, where you go in a slide each, but you go down at the same time to race each other, the Twister was horrible! There was no rubber ring and it went so fast I ended up hitting myself off the slide and fractured my ribs. I also managed to fracture my wrist.
Now for a rant about tampons.
I know people are different, but I just need to know, HOW CAN YOU WEAR THEM? They are so uncomfortable. Yeah, this is coming from a girl who likes sex and penis. You would think tampons would be nothing because they're smaller, but no.
Anywho, after Wet'n'wild we went for a McDonald's and when we finished we started walking back to the car, I fell over a Ballard. Talk about clumsy, I need to be wrapped up in bubble wrap!
My clumsyness is terrible! I'm not allowed in this shop called Collectibles because it's full of expensive glass ornaments and crystal ornaments and loads of stuff that is not Zoe proof. Oh dear.
Now, I'm absolutely tired and it's only 10 past 3 so I might as well go and have a nice little snooze to see if that stops all of the pain in my ribs and back and head and wrist.
(I have a nice long bruise across my back because I got stuck to a rubber ring and then done some sort of crazy flip out of it.)
Toodles!
24/10/2011
Awh, today was quite good!
It's my dad's birthday so me, him, my mam, sister, brother-in-law and two nieces went to a pub for a meal.
I had a chicken and bacon burger with BBQ sauce and I swear to god it was just beautiful!
I really wish I was eating it again, I'm quite hungry...
Tomorrow I'm going to a water park called Wet 'n' Wild and I'm pretty darn excited for that! Yay!
Just as I thought my week was going to be bad, it gets better and better!
Hmm, I don't think I really have anything else to say :')
So yeah,
Toodles!
It's my dad's birthday so me, him, my mam, sister, brother-in-law and two nieces went to a pub for a meal.
I had a chicken and bacon burger with BBQ sauce and I swear to god it was just beautiful!
I really wish I was eating it again, I'm quite hungry...
Tomorrow I'm going to a water park called Wet 'n' Wild and I'm pretty darn excited for that! Yay!
Just as I thought my week was going to be bad, it gets better and better!
Hmm, I don't think I really have anything else to say :')
So yeah,
Toodles!
23/10/2011
Scratch off challenge!
I was reading Hazel's blog and I noticed she done this scratch off challenge and I thought it look kind of fun!
Also, why not? It's Sunday, there's nothing better to do.If you want to do this too, then all you have to do is scratch off the things you have done or are relevant to you... Simple!
Appearance!
I tan easily.
I have a tattoo.
I have/had braces.
Embarrassment!
Health!
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I've had malaria.
I've had typhoid.
I've had jaundice.
Travel!
I've been on a plane.
I've been to the US.
I've been to Europe.
I've never been out of my country.
Experiences!
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've kissed someone underwater.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing.
I've been in a musical.
I've auditioned for something.
Honesty/crime!
Death!
I'm afraid of dying.
I've written an eulogy for myself.
Materialism!
I collected comic books.
I own a car.
I thrive on hate.
Random!
I can sing on low key.
I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up easily to others.
I'm a morning person.
I'm a sports cricket fanatic.
I love spam.
I've copied more then 30 CDs in a day.
I like Martha Stewart.
I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
I'm good at remembering dates.
People!
... Uses to ask if I was anorexic/bulimic.
... Call me fat.
... Say I'm skinny.
... Have said I'm ugly.
... Have said I'm pretty.
... Have spread rumours about me.
... Forced me to eat.
... Say I eat too much.
... Say I eat too little.
... Say I eat too fast.
... Say I eat too slow.
... Have called me a genius.
... Have given me gifts.
Eating!
I've lost weight.
I'm at my thinnest.
I'm at my biggest.
I've lost weight and kept it off.
I've lost weight but gained it back.
My weight affects my mood.
I diet.
I'm vegan/vegetarian.
I exercise.
Family!
I've sworn at my parents.
I've run away from home.
I have siblings less then one years old.
I have had kids.
I've lost a child.
I've lost a child.
Relationships.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I'm a swinger.
I'm in a relationship.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've gotten divorced.
I've kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality!
I've kissed a stranger.
Bad times!
I regularly drink.
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty.
I don't have anyone to talk to when I'm upset.
I have taken/take anti-depressants.
So... Now you know a bit more about my personal life.
Yes, I have been suicidal and I entirely regret that when I look back on it, but, I felt like no one cared at the time...
Yes, I have been suicidal and I entirely regret that when I look back on it, but, I felt like no one cared at the time...
Yeah, I'm also going to get my nipples pierced this week even though Harry has told me not to.
Toodes.
22/10/2011
Having followers makes me feel like Voldermort, which is why I named them my Deatheaters.
I have more Deatheaters then Voldermort, therefore I am more superiortoday then him (I made a mistake and just realised but I thought it would be funny to keep it in.)
Anyway, today, I stumped my toe on my drawers, so I immediately ran over to my laptop and updated my facebook status to 'Stumping your little toe is probably the worst pain ever'
My sister commented saying 'Erm, I beg to differ! Try breaking your arm then tell me if stumping your toe is worse!'... I replied with: 'I've never broke my arm before, therefore the worst pains I have experienced is stumping my toe and menstrual cramps... Excuse all of the posh and proper dialect, I am in a weird mood :')'
I don't know where my parents found me. I think I was found in a bin so my mam picked me out and said "I shall call you... Zoe" and then went to the top of Pride Rock and showed me to all the animal kingdom. From that day on, I was declared heir of the rock. (I just made that sentence my status)
Hahahaha, oh, I made cakes with my niece today, I don't know how it's funny, but we kept fighting over the instructions. I was telling her to just guess everything and she was like "No, you have to read the instructions to get them right" and then I remembered the last time I was making biscuits, I just guessed all of the measurements and they turned out like soggy cakes. They were disgusting and greasy so no one dared to touch them in case it gave them food poisoning. Oh me and my diabolical baking skills.
Ok, that's all I have for now, I'm going to get into bed with Ryan Reynolds, who is naked. (yeah I wish)
No, me and my friend Chris are going to take over the moon and make ray guns to shoot all of the moon zombies. We need to get lives.
In reality, I am making Sims that look like goths and prostitutes...
Toodles!
I have more Deatheaters then Voldermort, therefore I am more superior
Anyway, today, I stumped my toe on my drawers, so I immediately ran over to my laptop and updated my facebook status to 'Stumping your little toe is probably the worst pain ever'
My sister commented saying 'Erm, I beg to differ! Try breaking your arm then tell me if stumping your toe is worse!'... I replied with: 'I've never broke my arm before, therefore the worst pains I have experienced is stumping my toe and menstrual cramps... Excuse all of the posh and proper dialect, I am in a weird mood :')'
I don't know where my parents found me. I think I was found in a bin so my mam picked me out and said "I shall call you... Zoe" and then went to the top of Pride Rock and showed me to all the animal kingdom. From that day on, I was declared heir of the rock. (I just made that sentence my status)
Hahahaha, oh, I made cakes with my niece today, I don't know how it's funny, but we kept fighting over the instructions. I was telling her to just guess everything and she was like "No, you have to read the instructions to get them right" and then I remembered the last time I was making biscuits, I just guessed all of the measurements and they turned out like soggy cakes. They were disgusting and greasy so no one dared to touch them in case it gave them food poisoning. Oh me and my diabolical baking skills.
Ok, that's all I have for now, I'm going to get into bed with Ryan Reynolds, who is naked. (yeah I wish)
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| Who wouldn't want him naked in their bed?! |
In reality, I am making Sims that look like goths and prostitutes...
Toodles!
21/10/2011
I know I've just posted something, but really, it was just an award ceremony thing and wasn't really letting go of what I was thinking.
Ok, so you probably never knew this about me, but one part of my brain is always thinking about stuff to do with sex.
For example, there's a car outside of mine and it's been there for ages. This man just there came out and opened the car door and this girl got out. The first thing that popped into my dirty little mind was "Omg he is keeping her as a sex slave and is locking her into his car so he can just lie to people, say he is going to get something out of his car and then go to her for head... or something like that...
Yeah, now you know that. I don't really post stuff like this on here, but I guess it's what's going on it my mind, so yeah, why not?!
Talking about sex. Now that I have gotten my implant took out and I have came off my period for the first time in a year, I have completely lost all cravings for sex. I don't know whether it's good or bad...
Although I have lost the cravings, I still sometimes have them erotic dreams where some hot bloke comes along and shazzam his clothes are gone and so are mine... I like them dreams, although it probably means that my brain is screaming at me "go get laid"
Another thing I like to do it come up with funny euphemisms, suck my alien and bite my hedgehog are probably my favourite, although if someone said them to me with a serious face, I'd probably look at them for a while with a scared expression and walk away slowly, but quickly enough so they don't have the chance to follow me and repeat it constantly until I cry.....
Now for a sudden change of subject, I find it quite amusing when you attempt to play hide and seek with yourself. I'm probably sad to say this, but it kept me entertained for a whole 15 minutes.
I found myself in the mirror every time though ;)
Anywho, I'm gunna go and make myself something with chicken in....
Toooodles!
Ok, so you probably never knew this about me, but one part of my brain is always thinking about stuff to do with sex.
For example, there's a car outside of mine and it's been there for ages. This man just there came out and opened the car door and this girl got out. The first thing that popped into my dirty little mind was "Omg he is keeping her as a sex slave and is locking her into his car so he can just lie to people, say he is going to get something out of his car and then go to her for head... or something like that...
Yeah, now you know that. I don't really post stuff like this on here, but I guess it's what's going on it my mind, so yeah, why not?!
Talking about sex. Now that I have gotten my implant took out and I have came off my period for the first time in a year, I have completely lost all cravings for sex. I don't know whether it's good or bad...
Although I have lost the cravings, I still sometimes have them erotic dreams where some hot bloke comes along and shazzam his clothes are gone and so are mine... I like them dreams, although it probably means that my brain is screaming at me "go get laid"
Another thing I like to do it come up with funny euphemisms, suck my alien and bite my hedgehog are probably my favourite, although if someone said them to me with a serious face, I'd probably look at them for a while with a scared expression and walk away slowly, but quickly enough so they don't have the chance to follow me and repeat it constantly until I cry.....
Now for a sudden change of subject, I find it quite amusing when you attempt to play hide and seek with yourself. I'm probably sad to say this, but it kept me entertained for a whole 15 minutes.
I found myself in the mirror every time though ;)
Anywho, I'm gunna go and make myself something with chicken in....
Toooodles!
Award
I would like to thank Itin over from Miss Acidic for awarding me with the versatile blogger award!
And the awards go to:
7 facts
1. I walk with my feet out-turned and I have one pupil bigger then the other. I feel like a duck most of the time.
2. I'm a huge gamer and I get terrible gamer rage. e.g. with Angry Birds. If I can't one level, I'll say I hate the game and it's shi*t but then after another go, I will do it and I'll say it's the best game ever and I love it.
3. I don't know why, but when I walk through a crowd of people, or if someone if waking very close behind me, I hold my breath.
4. I read too many scary stories and now on a night I have to duck past my mirror, not look behind me and don't look down the sides of my bed. I also run and jump on my bed which has caused me to sprain my wrists multiple times.
5. I'm terrified of Spongebob and can't watch it anymore, thanks to reading Squidward's Suicide and looking at the picture.
6. I got a new phone recently. I have a T-Mobile Rapport and I'm in love with it!
7. I spend my night thinking about my old relationship with Harry and I think about how I could of probably made things better. I always end up crying myself to sleep because it's been almost a year since we split up and I'm no where near over him yet.
Right there's all my facts, I know they're nothing much, but I really can't think of anything interesting about me... :S
Now, for the part you have been waiting for! The 10 bloggers I think deserve this award!And the awards go to:
Mayen from Clicks and Cuts
Leah from Everyday Letters & I am Super Leah
Hazel from Pablo's Angel
Tay from Rawr Series
Hamza from Teenage Mutiny
Rosamond from Rosamond writes
Jessica from Lemons Don't Make Lemonade
Daniyal from Inspired by Daniyal - Deprived by Daniyal
I know it's meant to be 10 but there's one more person I'd like to award this to and she really does deserve it, as do all of the people I have listed here!
Daphyin from Makeup is Art
Now, RULEEEZZZZ, yeah, you have to follow them...
1. Thank and link back to the person who gave you the award.
2. Share 7 things about yourself.
3. Send it along to 10 other bloggers and let them know you have awarded them!
Just three simple little steps,
Now go and be happy :3Toodes
Don't look if you have a weak stomach!
Heeey dudes! I'm feeling slightly better today! Maybe because I got a new phone and it's awesome and stuff.
But that's not what I want to show you guys.
If you know me well enough, you will know that I like to take a picture of my injuries (if they're are noticeable that it, I couldn't take one of my split head because it's on the back of my head...)
So now, I'm going to put a picture of where I got my implant removed.
But that's not what I want to show you guys.
If you know me well enough, you will know that I like to take a picture of my injuries (if they're are noticeable that it, I couldn't take one of my split head because it's on the back of my head...)
So now, I'm going to put a picture of where I got my implant removed.
My plaster came off and I was greeted by a lovely stench of blood and anaesthetic. Also a lovely sight of blood. Quite a bit of it. I also noticed that I'm actually still bleeding a bit and it has been over 24 hours. I told you guys I was a good bleeder. haha.
I think it's a good job that my picture quality is not that good because it is quite gruesome.
I think it's a good job that my picture quality is not that good because it is quite gruesome.
Anyway, sorry if I made you sick and have put you off getting the implant. Getting it in was probably a bit worse, I had a MASSIVE bruise that took over my arm for like 2 months... but saying that, my arm was cut open getting it removed so it stings quite a lot and I bled more... Well, they're equally as bad.
Also both times I couldn't go in the bath for a few days in case it got infected. I feel all horrible
Out of my own experience, I wouldn't recommend getting the contraceptive implant, but I can't exactly say "Oh don't get it, it's crap, you bleed loads and blahblahblah" because we all have different bodies :)
Anywho, hope you all are good and you're arms are stinging-bloody-anaesthetic-plaster free and you're all nice and bathed and clean, I feel horrible (but it's not really effecting my mood!)
Toodles.
20/10/2011
You tell me to get in the kitchen, I will drop-kick you in your sensitive area.
This may probably be one of the worst days ever...
College
Jan (our lecturer) is basically picking on me and she is just annoying me now. She likes showing me up in front of the class.
Today she talked non-stop for half an hour and I was sitting there bored and in my own world (looking grumpy too, but can you blame me) and then she said "Zoe, why do you look so worried?" and everyone looked at me and then she just kept going on and on at me... It took me all of my will power not to leave the class and shout something very rude to her.
Luckily, we're off now for half-term.
Doctors
I went to the doctors today to get my implant out. If you don't know what an implant it, it is a stick that is put in your arm to stop you getting pregnant. Well, I wanted my implant out because I had it in for about a year and it just never worked for me. Addressing all females, how would you like to be bleeding for a whole year none stop? Yeah, it's not good I can tell you that.
It wasn't too bad in all honesty. The anaesthetic needle hurt quite a bit but when it came to cutting my arm and pulling the implant out, it was nothing, just felt like tugging. After that, I was bleeding loads and then another nurse came in to do the dressing and she got all frustrated because I was bleeding loads, haha. She had trouble getting the steristrips on because of it. She was like "Oh dear, you're bleeding loads!"
Everything annoys me
I'm at the point where everything annoys me and I cry at everything. I think it's mainly because my arm is stinging and I get all grumpy after having needles in me.
When I got home, all the annoying people decided to pop up and talk to me about utter nonsense! They usually don't talk to me so why now?! Seriously!
And now that I need to talk to Harry he won't bloody reply to my texts or anything! I want to drop-kick him in the sensitive area because he said he will text me to keep me company in case I get scared. He texted me this morning atleast.....
Now I have this over-excited ginger 15 year old talking about sex and trying to turn everything into a competition. I also want to drop-kick him n the sensitive area. Especially now that he has said "I have had sex 4 times, my first time when I was 7" Seriously, I didn't even know what sex was when I was 7, He's more then likely lying though. His parents must be proud...
I'm sorry you guys have to put up with this, but you guys understand and you say such lovely comments that make me feel better. I feel like I can tell you a lot more stuff then what I can tell people who I know very well. Maybe because you's won't spread it around like what most "friends" do...
Girls, you can probably relate to me...
Boys, I'm sorry that you have to put up with girls when we're like this... We don't really mean it, honestly!
Right, I'll let you carry on with whatever you were doing :D Thank you for taking the time to listen (well, read)
I love you all! Free hugs and cookies for everyone to make it up to you since I'm in a crappy mood!
Toodles!
College
Jan (our lecturer) is basically picking on me and she is just annoying me now. She likes showing me up in front of the class.
Today she talked non-stop for half an hour and I was sitting there bored and in my own world (looking grumpy too, but can you blame me) and then she said "Zoe, why do you look so worried?" and everyone looked at me and then she just kept going on and on at me... It took me all of my will power not to leave the class and shout something very rude to her.
Luckily, we're off now for half-term.
Doctors
I went to the doctors today to get my implant out. If you don't know what an implant it, it is a stick that is put in your arm to stop you getting pregnant. Well, I wanted my implant out because I had it in for about a year and it just never worked for me. Addressing all females, how would you like to be bleeding for a whole year none stop? Yeah, it's not good I can tell you that.
It wasn't too bad in all honesty. The anaesthetic needle hurt quite a bit but when it came to cutting my arm and pulling the implant out, it was nothing, just felt like tugging. After that, I was bleeding loads and then another nurse came in to do the dressing and she got all frustrated because I was bleeding loads, haha. She had trouble getting the steristrips on because of it. She was like "Oh dear, you're bleeding loads!"
Everything annoys me
I'm at the point where everything annoys me and I cry at everything. I think it's mainly because my arm is stinging and I get all grumpy after having needles in me.
When I got home, all the annoying people decided to pop up and talk to me about utter nonsense! They usually don't talk to me so why now?! Seriously!
And now that I need to talk to Harry he won't bloody reply to my texts or anything! I want to drop-kick him in the sensitive area because he said he will text me to keep me company in case I get scared. He texted me this morning atleast.....
Now I have this over-excited ginger 15 year old talking about sex and trying to turn everything into a competition. I also want to drop-kick him n the sensitive area. Especially now that he has said "I have had sex 4 times, my first time when I was 7" Seriously, I didn't even know what sex was when I was 7, He's more then likely lying though. His parents must be proud...
I'm sorry you guys have to put up with this, but you guys understand and you say such lovely comments that make me feel better. I feel like I can tell you a lot more stuff then what I can tell people who I know very well. Maybe because you's won't spread it around like what most "friends" do...
Girls, you can probably relate to me...
Boys, I'm sorry that you have to put up with girls when we're like this... We don't really mean it, honestly!
Right, I'll let you carry on with whatever you were doing :D Thank you for taking the time to listen (well, read)
I love you all! Free hugs and cookies for everyone to make it up to you since I'm in a crappy mood!
Toodles!
18/10/2011
Oh today was just so long and tiring! I want to curl up in a ball and sleep!
It's getting to that time of year where there's bitterly cold winds, your hands, nose and ears go bright bright red due to coldness and also snow is on it's way pretty soon, apparently.
That time of the year where you want to put on your warmest jarmies and snuggle up in your quilt with a roasting fire and lots of good films to watch.
Anyway, back to the long and tiring day.
At college, the times on tuesday are changing from 10 o'clock in the morning to 9 o'clock in the morning (on the bright side, we get thursdays off now!) but these changes start after half-term, however, I thought they already started... So I woke up early.... But when I found out I crawled back into my pit (warm cosy smushy bed) and spooned with my teddy for half an hour (yeah, I go to college and still can't sleep with teddies on my bed, I have a double bed so I need them to fill it up and make me feel less lonely)
Ok fast forward to dinner time... Imagine this scenario, I was sitting there happily nibbling away at my aero chocolate bar, with my friend Sam looking at me. So, still nibbling on my aero, I looked at him and then he randomly said to Amy (my other friend) "Do you think we'd make a good couple" and then put his arm around me... I was then nibbling on my aero with a scared expression. Then it decided to snap and fall to the ground... I cried.
Anyway, I have a bed calling my name for a threesome with the blankie and pillows, YUMMY! Or would if be foursome? You have the matress too... Hmm.
Oh well, Bed time for me!
Hope you all have a good day/night my beauties!
Much love
Toodles!
It's getting to that time of year where there's bitterly cold winds, your hands, nose and ears go bright bright red due to coldness and also snow is on it's way pretty soon, apparently.
That time of the year where you want to put on your warmest jarmies and snuggle up in your quilt with a roasting fire and lots of good films to watch.
Anyway, back to the long and tiring day.
At college, the times on tuesday are changing from 10 o'clock in the morning to 9 o'clock in the morning (on the bright side, we get thursdays off now!) but these changes start after half-term, however, I thought they already started... So I woke up early.... But when I found out I crawled back into my pit (warm cosy smushy bed) and spooned with my teddy for half an hour (yeah, I go to college and still can't sleep with teddies on my bed, I have a double bed so I need them to fill it up and make me feel less lonely)
Ok fast forward to dinner time... Imagine this scenario, I was sitting there happily nibbling away at my aero chocolate bar, with my friend Sam looking at me. So, still nibbling on my aero, I looked at him and then he randomly said to Amy (my other friend) "Do you think we'd make a good couple" and then put his arm around me... I was then nibbling on my aero with a scared expression. Then it decided to snap and fall to the ground... I cried.
Anyway, I have a bed calling my name for a threesome with the blankie and pillows, YUMMY! Or would if be foursome? You have the matress too... Hmm.
Oh well, Bed time for me!
Hope you all have a good day/night my beauties!
Much love
Toodles!
17/10/2011
My nightmares are back. You may be thinking 'pshh nightmares aren't that bad, it's just in your mind'
Well, that's what scares me the most. It's in my mind. These nightmares haunt me for the rest of the day.
What are my nightmares about you ask? Serial killers, death, violence, all that jazz.
Last night I had a dream I was a patient in a mental hospital (well I was someone else, but I cold see everything they saw). The doctors done horrible stuff to me, they beat me and done loads of other terrible stuff. Then I turned psycho and went round killing the doctors.
Well, that's what scares me the most. It's in my mind. These nightmares haunt me for the rest of the day.
What are my nightmares about you ask? Serial killers, death, violence, all that jazz.
Last night I had a dream I was a patient in a mental hospital (well I was someone else, but I cold see everything they saw). The doctors done horrible stuff to me, they beat me and done loads of other terrible stuff. Then I turned psycho and went round killing the doctors.
Anywho that's enough of my terrible nightmares...
I need to have a rant.
You see at college, I have 3 lecturers for my lesson and today we had Jan. Jan does different shapes, but she makes it seem more like an art lesson not a fashion and textiles one.
Firstly, she makes us go to the beach and collect stones so we can get inspiration from them. Personally, I can't get inspiration from stones because they are boring as hell.
Secondly, she basically picks on me, Amy and Sam and makes us do stuff that we don't want to do. She just nags and nags at us and complains when we're doing other things, like drawing a dress! Excuse me but last time I checked I was in fashion and textiles, dresses are associated with that!
I need to have a rant.
You see at college, I have 3 lecturers for my lesson and today we had Jan. Jan does different shapes, but she makes it seem more like an art lesson not a fashion and textiles one.
Firstly, she makes us go to the beach and collect stones so we can get inspiration from them. Personally, I can't get inspiration from stones because they are boring as hell.
Secondly, she basically picks on me, Amy and Sam and makes us do stuff that we don't want to do. She just nags and nags at us and complains when we're doing other things, like drawing a dress! Excuse me but last time I checked I was in fashion and textiles, dresses are associated with that!
Rant over.
Toodles.
16/10/2011
Story of the Little Boy
Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: “How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?”
The surgeon said, “I’m sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn’t make it.”
Sally said, “Why do little children get cancer? Doesn’t God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?”
The surgeon asked, “Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he’s transported to the university.”
Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair.
“Would you like a lock of his hair?” the nurse asked.
Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy’s hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, “It was Jimmy’s idea to donate his body to the university for study. He said it might help somebody else. “I said no at first, but Jimmy said, ‘Mom, I won’t be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.” She went on, “My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.”
Sally walked out of Children’s mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy’s belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy’s belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son’s room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.
It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:
“Dear Mom,
I know you’re going to miss me; but don’t think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just ’cause I’m not around to say I LOVE YOU. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won’t be so lonely, that’s okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn’t like the same things us boys do. You’ll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don’t be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn’t look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God’s knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That’s when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good-bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn’t allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him ‘Where was He when I needed him?’ “God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.
Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I’ve written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn’t that cool? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I’m, sure the food will be great.
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don’t hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I’m glad because I couldn’t stand that pain anymore and God couldn’t stand to see me hurt so much, either. That’s when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?
Signed with Love from: God, Jesus & Me.”
I just found this story on a Facebook page called InspireYourLiving and I just had to share it.
When I read it, I just burst out crying, it's so heat breaking, yet heart warming at the same time.
When I read it, I just burst out crying, it's so heat breaking, yet heart warming at the same time.
Toodles.
13/10/2011
Thank you!
I would love to thank Hazel from Pablo's Angel for awarding me the You're an Angel! Award!
This award has honestly made my whole day!
I would also like to thank you for giving the name Princess!
You're such a sweet person! Much love! <3
You're such a sweet person! Much love! <3
On the side note, in the little village where I live, there's this traditional feast that happens once a year, there's all sorts of stuff like parades, a fair ground, ox roasting etc... I went there with my sister and two nieces. I am happy to say I'm a proud owner of a penguin teddy (to add to my collection, I LOOOOVE penguins!!!). I called him Rupert!
Toodles!
12/10/2011
12th October 2011
Hi there!
First of all, I'd like to share my look of the day for you.

So, this is how I done my hair and makeup for college today.
Just a simple bun and my trademark messy fringe for the hair. For the make up, it was pin-up inspired. Red lips, nude eyes with a bit of eyeliner, although I didn't do the cats eye flick because I was lazy.
I have miniature expanders in my ears now! In one ear, I have 4mm and in the other I have 3mm, yes I plan on expanding them a bit bigger.
If you're wondering about the top, it is a Drop Dead one (Drop Dead is a famous make by Oli Sykes, you will know this if you're a lover of heavy metal/screamo music!)
Secondly, I have my halloween costume planned! Well, kind of...
It's the Chesire cat from Alice: Madness Returns (video game).
The first picture is Alice with the Chesire dress. The second picture is the actual Chesire cat.
I'm not 100% sure which one to base my look on because if I want to do the cat one I'd have to draw a huge smile on my face. Oh well, I guess either way I'll be wearing the dress what Alice is wearing.
Also, the Chesire cat has a ring in one ear, which may also be difficult for me since I have expanded my ears....


Here is a picture of my attempted Chesire cat grin.
In all honesty, I like it, but I think I need to watch a few tutorials on how to do the grin, because I think that would be awesome for my costume!
Also I need to do my hair darker, I need to get some grey body paint, a grey dress and some grey shoes (I can then draw cat feet on them)
In all honesty, I really love how the eyes turned out, just a bit of improvement needed!
I look so angry!
Anywho, I think that's all for now... I will be forgetting something because it's Zoe's forgetfulness week! Seriously, yesterday I was an hour late for college because I thought we were meant to be in at 11... It turns out it was 10. Oh dear. *facepalm*
Toodles!
First of all, I'd like to share my look of the day for you.
So, this is how I done my hair and makeup for college today.
Just a simple bun and my trademark messy fringe for the hair. For the make up, it was pin-up inspired. Red lips, nude eyes with a bit of eyeliner, although I didn't do the cats eye flick because I was lazy.
I have miniature expanders in my ears now! In one ear, I have 4mm and in the other I have 3mm, yes I plan on expanding them a bit bigger.
If you're wondering about the top, it is a Drop Dead one (Drop Dead is a famous make by Oli Sykes, you will know this if you're a lover of heavy metal/screamo music!)
Secondly, I have my halloween costume planned! Well, kind of...
It's the Chesire cat from Alice: Madness Returns (video game).
The first picture is Alice with the Chesire dress. The second picture is the actual Chesire cat.
I'm not 100% sure which one to base my look on because if I want to do the cat one I'd have to draw a huge smile on my face. Oh well, I guess either way I'll be wearing the dress what Alice is wearing.
Also, the Chesire cat has a ring in one ear, which may also be difficult for me since I have expanded my ears....


Here is a picture of my attempted Chesire cat grin.
In all honesty, I like it, but I think I need to watch a few tutorials on how to do the grin, because I think that would be awesome for my costume!
Also I need to do my hair darker, I need to get some grey body paint, a grey dress and some grey shoes (I can then draw cat feet on them)
In all honesty, I really love how the eyes turned out, just a bit of improvement needed!
I look so angry!
Anywho, I think that's all for now... I will be forgetting something because it's Zoe's forgetfulness week! Seriously, yesterday I was an hour late for college because I thought we were meant to be in at 11... It turns out it was 10. Oh dear. *facepalm*
Toodles!
11/10/2011
I don't think I have cried so much in my life over my body!
It doesn't help that I've had an injection and that has made me more emotional but today, I looked in the mirror and all I saw was bones so I burst out crying! :(
I really need help putting weight on! I just can't! No matter how much I eat, I just don't put anything on and now I'm starting to hate mirrors...
So as you can all tell, I'm having a really bad time and in one of them moods where looking into a mirror will make me cry.
I'm going to make an appointment at the doctors soon though to see if they can help me.
To all those people with anorexia, there's nothing wrong at all with a bit of meat on your bones! Seriously! Curves are better then bones...
Bad thoughts and broken mirrors....
Toodles
It doesn't help that I've had an injection and that has made me more emotional but today, I looked in the mirror and all I saw was bones so I burst out crying! :(
I really need help putting weight on! I just can't! No matter how much I eat, I just don't put anything on and now I'm starting to hate mirrors...
So as you can all tell, I'm having a really bad time and in one of them moods where looking into a mirror will make me cry.
I'm going to make an appointment at the doctors soon though to see if they can help me.
To all those people with anorexia, there's nothing wrong at all with a bit of meat on your bones! Seriously! Curves are better then bones...
Bad thoughts and broken mirrors....
Toodles
09/10/2011
I just got back from hospital...
Yes, you read that correct!
Yours truly just got back from hospital...
Why, you ask? Well, here's the story;
Lets start off at 7:00am, I was still sleepy but ever so hungry, so I went down to get some food. (The sleepy bit is important in this story). Ok, so, I was being all groggy and moody whilst slumping down the stairs, I turned into the living room and my mam laughed at me, saying I had funny bed hair. I heard my dad in the kitchen making some toast already, so I went in to ask him to make me some. I got into the kitchen and then suddenly, I went light-headed, causing me to fall and hit my head off the corner of the bench.
Yes, I split my head open.
There's my story! How unfortunate am I.
Also, I have to go to the doctors tomorrow for a flu jab and my contraceptive implant took out. I am going to be ill again, YAY!
Just in case you get all worried (well I do hope you don't, I don't like it when people worry) it's fine! My head is all glued back together and there was no damage to my brain!
Also, this is the second time I have split my head open.... You guys know how clumsy I am!
Anywho, toodles
Yours truly just got back from hospital...
Why, you ask? Well, here's the story;
Lets start off at 7:00am, I was still sleepy but ever so hungry, so I went down to get some food. (The sleepy bit is important in this story). Ok, so, I was being all groggy and moody whilst slumping down the stairs, I turned into the living room and my mam laughed at me, saying I had funny bed hair. I heard my dad in the kitchen making some toast already, so I went in to ask him to make me some. I got into the kitchen and then suddenly, I went light-headed, causing me to fall and hit my head off the corner of the bench.
Yes, I split my head open.
There's my story! How unfortunate am I.
Also, I have to go to the doctors tomorrow for a flu jab and my contraceptive implant took out. I am going to be ill again, YAY!
Just in case you get all worried (well I do hope you don't, I don't like it when people worry) it's fine! My head is all glued back together and there was no damage to my brain!
Also, this is the second time I have split my head open.... You guys know how clumsy I am!
Anywho, toodles
I'm sorry people! I haven't blogged in a while, I have excuses!
I've spent most of the week in bed trying to sweat my cold out... It worked! My cold has only lasted a week instead of a month!
So yeah, as you can guess I've had nothing at all to blog about.
Another excuse is that I've been playing on Sims again. I made the Simpsons house on it!
I've spent most of the week in bed trying to sweat my cold out... It worked! My cold has only lasted a week instead of a month!
So yeah, as you can guess I've had nothing at all to blog about.
Another excuse is that I've been playing on Sims again. I made the Simpsons house on it!
Yeah, Zoe needs a life. This baby took me 5 hours to do. I done interior and exterior and it took A LOT of research on what the Simpson's house looks like.... And then my dog decided to walk across my laptop and it all crashed and I needed to restarted. I lost the house. Yes, I cried.
So, today... Or yesterday since it is now half 1 in the morning, my niece came into my room on the morning and she gave me these fake vampire teeth.
You guys are lucky, you get to see me when I'm ill and just woken up.
But yeah, my sisters saw the picture and they both said I look completely different.
Oh! Looks like I do have stuff to tell you!
Pretty soon in college I have to draw *drumroll please* A NAKED WOMAN !
I have NO idea what it has to do with fashion (for all who don't know, I am studying Fashion and Clothing at college), but in all honesty, most of the stuff we do is more like art, not fashion. We have to draw rocks for crying out loud!
Pretty soon in college I have to draw *drumroll please* A NAKED WOMAN !
I have NO idea what it has to do with fashion (for all who don't know, I am studying Fashion and Clothing at college), but in all honesty, most of the stuff we do is more like art, not fashion. We have to draw rocks for crying out loud!
Anywho, back to naked woman... A chunky woman (hope this doesn't offend anyone! It's not meant to be offensive at all!) is going to be coming into my class and taking off all her clothes and then we have to draw her. Awesome.
Anyway, I've finished with my excuses!
I'm going to go and read Alice in Wonderland :D
I'm going to go and read Alice in Wonderland :D
Toodles!
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